A picture says a thousand words. Lately those words have been all I've heard, telling me of all the memories I miss, each and every word. Looking at these pictures of the past and all the fun we shared, all of the good times, I remember how much you cared. We used to be so tight and it would take so much to pull us apart. Little did we know that the pulling would soon start. It was like a fire of despair, together we were lighting. Then came the taking sides and the splitting of us in half. Never again would we share that fun. Never again would we share a laugh.
I used to wish things were the way they were. I used to wish we could go back in time. I used to wish we could just start all over. Back when we were in our prime. But as for the bread of friendship, its been fed to the birds. At least so I've been told by these pictures thousand words.
I remember crashing your place after a night of fun with the class. We went bra-less in pyjamas and talked our hearts out. I dozed off while you continue to rant about your problems and woke up to find that it's already morning with you sleeping soundly beside me. I was smiling from ear to ear. Last year's valentine's day was the hardest to get by but you managed to pull me through. The sunflower you gave was lovely and it warmed my heart. Everything was cool until last december. Forget december and shed no tears, they say. But i kept holding on, even to the slightest hint of hope. I don't know how things started to turn sour, all i remember was you turning your back at me. It stinged and that sucks. Bestfriends forever, we once said. But all the fun and laughters we shared have already been flushed down the drain. I gave up.
And now, you came back, with "shitloads of apologises" and "would prolly see you around". I felt numb and i didn't know what to say. I don't know what you are up to. Insincere was what i thought. I realised things will never be the same again. Maybe we left too many things unsaid and it piled up to this problem between us now. I don't know what is coming after this and all i can do is to go with the flow.
But one thing for sure, i will never allow myself to falter because of you again.
